Wednesday, November 25, 2009

Christmas Season and an Update

Four weeks (and two posts) ago, I was feeling quite depressed and wrote a post listing several things I wanted in life. Praise God, I have achieved or acquired some of those things.

I have a laptop thanks to a wonderful pre-Black Friday Sale at Walmart.
I have a horizontal license (apparently, in NH when you renew your license two days before your 21st birthday, they will give you a vertical [under 21] temp license but when they send you the real thing, it is horizontal [over 21])*
I now have the new Star Trek movie on DVD (such a great movie!)
While I am not exactly healthy, I am getting help and am doing better. And contentment, working on that too.
Oh, and the depression, doing better with that too.

The holidays help a lot. Lately I have been hearing a lot of negative stuff about Christmas and the Christmas season. People complain how commercialized Christmas has gotten and how they now hate Christmas. I don't repute that Christmas is crazy commercialized, it very much is. However, I absolutely LOVE Christmas. If it was up to me, I would probably move Thanksgiving to September, and OFFICIALLY extend the Christmas season all through November and actually have the 12 days of Christmas. The Christmas season for me means family and friends. I love having everyone together just hanging out and enjoying each other's company and the great food. The whole family together with nothing to do except enjoy the fellowship. No one has to rush off to work or an appointment. Everyone is together and having fun. Random board or card games will break out at random times. People aren't all off in their own corners on the internet or playing single-player video games. In fact, I believe all the wonderful things about Christmas and the Christmas season, the atmosphere, the family, friends, the simple wonderfulness of it all, are all going to be part of Heaven.


*this one has actually made me ashamed of my pathetic, shallow wishes.

Saturday, November 7, 2009

My Last Amen by Downhere

From the corner of my eye
There's a tear I'm trying to cry
But the feeling can't be found
Like a note thrills in a song
When I play it again, it's gone
Cuz it was never in the sound

And it keeps me wanting
That mysterious thing
Like a night is waiting for a dawn

Every prayer I say (a little closer)
To my resting place (a little closer)
Where my final breath is the beginning
To never needing
And I will find my last Amen

I could swear I have two hearts
One to stay, one to depart
This sad, tragic kingdom
And it burns me down to the core
Because I know there's so much more
It's just a pale reflection
And it keeps me wanting
That mysterious thing
Like an outcast waiting to belong

And while the thrills are fading
The joy is in the waiting
Somewhere in the grand design
It's good be unsatisfied
It keeps the faith and hope a little more alive