In The Light

Just about anytime I feel distant from God or anything, somehow, I end up hearing In The Light by DC Talk. That song is one that just speaks to me. I feel like I am the one singing it. The two different "voices" singing, the part singing about about how he's the king of excuses and then the other singing wondering what's going inside of him, I can relate to that. I feel like I start to do something, maybe get into the habit and then suddenly something inside me wakes up and then there's the other voice wondering what I'm doing and how I got to be like this, so far away from Him. I always found this song rather creepy and convicting when I was younger. I enjoyed the feel of the music but the line: "it's a cancer fatal to my soul." Scared the living daylights out of me. One of my biggest fears is getting cancer and the thought of a cancer that I already have, that everyone has that I cannot get rid of, understandably, freaked me out.

I keep trying to find a life
On my own, apart from You
I am the king of excuses
I've got one for every selfish thing I do

What's going on inside of me?
I despise my own behavior
This only serves to confirm my suspicions
That I'm still a man in need of a Savior

(chorus)
I wanna be in the Light
As You are in the Light
I wanna shine like the stars in the heavens
Oh, Lord be my Light and be my salvation
Cause all I want is to be in the Light
All I want is to be in the Light

The disease of self runs through my blood
It's a cancer fatal to my soul
Every attempt on my behalf has failed
To bring this sickness under control

Tell me, what's going on inside of me?
I despise my own behavior
This only serves to confirm my suspicions
That I'm still a man in need of a Savior

(repeat chorus)

Honesty becomes me
[There's nothing left to lose]
The secrets that did run me
[In Your presence are defused]
Pride has no position
[And riches have no worth]
The fame that once did cover me
[Has been sentenced to this Earth]
Has been sentenced to this Earth